Grace and peace dear reader, glad to have you on board. hope you were blessed by our maiden publication. Let’s keep praying for that family.
I had something else in mind to share with you today, but God seems to keep me on the path of reminiscence with stuff I would rather not deal with. But here goes.
As I woke this morning and glared at the cross I had tried to dismantle the day before, so I did not have to carry it again today. (please don’t judge me for trying to cut corners) Luke 9:23 “Then He (Jesus) said to them if anyone desires to come after me, let Him deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow me.” I wondered how much longer I had to deal with this particular cross, it was irritating me and I was getting bored with it. That wasn’t the only cross I was carrying mind you, it was just a very annoying and reoccurring one. You know like the roach you thought you had drowned in the kitchen sink, and then 8 minutes later it crawls out again. Then you are like Lord, for what reason did you make roaches?
Anyway, as I pondered my lot and arranged my crosses so I could pick them up in the order they were received. The Lord dropped a thought in my mind. Could these daily irritants be the boundary God has set for me, to keep me from marching full throttle into a sin filled life style? I thought about the (painful) denying my self part, having to say no to my good plans that were not God plans. Fleeing like an Olympic Sprint medalist from temptation and of course constantly by the grace of God resisting and warding of the devil. (Who happens to enjoy stalking me all the time!) Phew! does the weary ever catch a break? Yes, I guess when they get to heaven.
I once had a friend whom I loved dearly in the Lord, I was especially taken by their commitment to raise the banner of truth and glorify God in all they did. They also had very pressing issues that plagued their very life daily. I willingly and joyfully stood in the gap of prayer for them. If they had a battle I would stand with them or even for them and fight. so committed was I in praying for my friend that I neglected my own ‘vineyard’ (Song of Solomon 1:6).
A big weakness I have, I am too real and loyal in a fake and swindling society. Then my friend got a break, and completely turned on me. Even in the issues we agreed on as God birthed. To say I was shocked is an understatement, but then again betrayal seems to be the rule of the day these days. Every time you turn around, Judas has sold Jesus for another 30 pieces of silver. As I went lamenting to the Lord, He simply reminded me that He had answered my prayer for that former friend. In my fervent intercession, I completely wiped out any obstacle to pride in their life and probably with the help and sympathy of other saints unknowingly created a monster. If they had a perceived enemy, I would work the grave shift on my knees. If I heard a negative word about them, I would hold a seminar to clear their name. (Psalm 55:12-14)
So do I still have a problem picking up some cross every now and then? Absolutely not. I want to finish this race well by God’s grace. It’s like Jacob’s limp, I am reminded who is in control everyday and the fact that we will all reap what we sow. My reward is not dependent on that friend and what they do, my reward is dependent on God. It is okay if I ere’ for being just and true.
So much for answered prayers, huh. Praise God and Hallelujah anyhow!